Im honestly just done with this cheap one time sex thing. Im tired of sleeping alone every night. Im tired of feeling alone too. I don’t want this anymore. I want to lose myself in someone. I want to ache when they are gone. I want to miss the smell of their hair, to yearn for the sound of their voice, and the elation of reunion after a long separation. I want to feel their heat next to me when I sleep at night, and their lips on mine when I wake in the morning. I want to know what it feels like to be content with lying in bed for two hours watching the person you love most in this world sleep and adoring every second of it because you didn’t want to wake them up climbing out of bed. I want a something deeper, Something without a name. Just someone who can make the rest of the world disappear when Im with them. Someone who can quiet the storm in my mind. Someone who loving is as effortless as breathing.
I want to set my heart ablaze for someone… because god Im so tired of feeling cold inside. Im so sick of being a husk of a person just going through the motions to get by.